Random Confessions
I miss my family so much. I had my husband’s mother over for the weekend and it was quite nice but it made me miss my mom, my brothers and sister. As for my father… sigh… there are too many problems there but I do miss him.
…I feel quite lonely sometimes. I wonder many times who my real friends truly are and I realize true friends are few but I am thankful for the one true friend I know I have in this dunyaa and that is my beloved husband, may Allaah protect him always, aameen
I’ve always been rebellious and I know I can be a bit hard-headed sometimes and it really does suck. It’s hard to break myself of some habits and it is hard to sometimes accept my own shortcomings but it feels good when I am able to recognize a mistake and accept it.
… I miss parts of my old self. I used to read all the time and bringing it back to a habit has been hard.
I admit that I have so many saved drafts for my blog that I never dare to publish. They are opinions on so many topics but I am afraid to share them with the world and it kills me because that’s why I write them. My latest entry is called ‘The Ideal Muslimah’ but I just can’t press publish.
… I love sitting down and watching our fish tank. It soothes my heart.
In a few weeks our life will be changing again, insha’Allaah and I am very stressed about it. I don’t know how well I will handle the changes and sometimes I cry because of it.
…I hate lacking in my deen and I hate knowing that I’m not the best mother and wife I could be.
I hate how much I think. I think way too much. I wake up in the middle night suddenly and just think about every possible thing until I feel like I am going to go insane.
…I want to make up my mind on one particular matter but me and my husband haven’t came to an agreement on it yet and it sucks. It’s minor but still important.
I love my son. He’s my darling… he can be such a 3 year old lol but I just adore that boy masha’allaah, may Allaah protect him from harm, aameen
make du`aa’ for my family’s guidance please
AnonyMouse wrote,
Ohhhhhh, sister, insha’Allah everything will work out! And even if it doesn’t become super easy, then insha’Allah you will be rewarded for your patience and forbearance! :)
Hugs from your little sister in Islam,
Mouse
Link | April 2nd, 2007 at 4:45 pm
M wrote,
Aww, I love you man..May Allaah make it easy! - Aameen
Link | April 4th, 2007 at 6:06 am
Umm Khawlah wrote,
assalaamu`alaykum wa rahmatullaahi wa barakaatuh,
“I admit that I have so many saved drafts for my blog that I never dare to publish. They are opinions on so many topics but I am afraid to share them with the world and it kills me because that’s why I write them. My latest entry is called ‘The Ideal Muslimah’ but I just can’t press publish.”
Ukhtee, don’t be afraid to share your opinions. This is what blogs are for. Maybe if you share, others will learn and in turn share their own opinions with you. Sometimes there can be disagreements but they can be resolved in a civil manner. But the most important thing is to let it out. Even if no one reads it, atleast it’ll be off your mind.
As for all of those problems, trust me, I feel like that too sometimes and Im sure so does every other person on this planet. Just take a deep breath and let things take their flow.
May Allaah ease your affairs and fill your heart with contentment, aameen.
Link | April 4th, 2007 at 10:55 pm
muslimahnyc wrote,
assalaamu`alaykum wa rahmatullaahi wa barakaatuh,
bismillah
we all feel this way at one time or the other, i know before Hamza was born i was really nervous because i didn’t know how i was going to handle the change, and raising two children under the age of two, but alhamdulillah Allah swt help is always here and its been here, if we call on Allah indeed he will reply alhamdulillah. sometimes at the end of the day, or when i’m finish making dinner or cleaning up in the kitchen i just say alhamdulillah because Allah helped me get through it, enough about me though :)
the important thing to remember is to keep Allah swt in rememberance at times of hardship & ease and to remember that Allah responds to our call whether it may be in this duniyah or in the akhirah.
and yeah don’t worry about your saved drafts you will share them with the world when your ready to or even if you want to, Allah knows whats in your heart and He knows your intentions so no worries inshallah :)
your family is in my dua alhamdulillah
love you
wa salaam
Umm Hasan
Link | April 5th, 2007 at 2:34 pm
Umm Layth wrote,
wa `alaykum as-Salaamu wa rahmatullaahi wa barakaatuhu
Anonymouse: Thanks for the encouragement and the hug : ).
M: may Allaah make it easy for all of us, Aameen… (and I hope everything is well with you)
Umm Khawlah: Aameen.
After I wrote this entry I thought a lot about what I said and I’m going to be pressing that button soon insha’Allaah.
Before Islaam I was the quiet one, the one afraid to voice her opinions but i’ve changed after my acceptance of Islaam. Everyone is out there sharing their opinions and many people don’t realize that what they say is going against the deen of Allaah and they have no shame to speak without knowledge.
People are out there speaking about what a Muslim woman should be according to the west and what age we should accept `A’ishah was because their own minds can’t submit to the possibility she was young and they don’t realize the dangerous path they are treading.
and I need to start drinking more fruit juice - it relaxes the mind.
Umm Hasan: I think we need to exchange numbers. I really benefit from your thoughts and I need some tips now that you are a mother of 2 as well insha’Allaah.
May Allaah love all of you, aameen
Link | April 6th, 2007 at 7:48 am
muslimahnyc wrote,
I’ll email you my number inshallah :)
Link | April 7th, 2007 at 2:50 pm
UmmNour wrote,
“but I am thankful for the one true friend I know I have in this dunyaa and that is my beloved husband, may Allaah protect him always, aameen”
Aww mashAllah…and you know thats so true. I feel I can search every corner of the world..and I will never find a friend as true and as dear as my husband. And of course i think it goes both ways, you become their closest friend too. May Allah bless you two Ameen!
Link | April 8th, 2007 at 4:17 pm